Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Motherhood: Where poop is interesting and "let-downs" are good things. ;)

I can't believe I haven't written since shortly after Tucker was born...but then again, I can believe it.  I've been busy.  Currently, he's sleeping on the bed with his dad...which is a rare occasion.  He's not one to sleep without his momma.  ;)

Well, I sure thought having a baby would be the cure for my baby fever, but it just made it worse.  I want another baby SO bad!  But, after many talks, Thomas and I have agreed to wait until Tucker's 1st birthday to re-evaluate our lives, see where we are at, and if it would be a wise decision to start trying.  =)  Which means I have 7 months to make things happen.  I gotta get my ducks in a row...New car, and another bedroom would do.  I am playing around the idea of starting my own business, but I'm not going to share the details on here.

Basically, Motherhood is fantastic, and tiring, but mostly fantastic.  I cry about everyday when I realize how fast time is flying.  My perfect baby boy is growing up too fast!  He's 5 months on the 14th, and weighs over 18 lbs.  He's sitting up [for very short amounts of time], eating some foods, trying to crawl, rolling over, and loving tv [ugh, I know!].

He's happy, healthy, and absolutely a blast.  I now understand so much more about life, seeing it through a parent's eye.  I've honestly never been happier.  I look at Tucker and I see this perfect product of my husband and I, and it's the most amazing thing.

I've pretty much kept up all my goals so far.  Breastfeeding is going great, except that he's learned to bite-lovely, I know.  He sleeps with us, I use my moby or a sling as much as possible, and we've never been apart.  He's attached at my hip... literally.  Only goal I missed was prolonging the food.  I did want to wait six months, but I waited until 4 months-but for the first 3 weeks it was just letting him taste things, not really eat any good amount.  But the last week he's eaten a couple of ounces every day just about.  So far he likes pineapples, tomatoes, raspberries [kinda], carrots, potatoes, and bananas.  He loves to eat and try to feed himself.  =)

My health is pretty good.  I fit back into my jeans when I got home from the hospital, and I was back down to my pre-baby weight at my 2 weeks appointment.  I've been trying to eat better, but I have a lot of improvement in that area.  I did bleed for 10 weeks, and I was so sore from pushing that I barely walked for the first 2 weeks...oh the things they don't tell you!  =P  Now, I'm up and about, and even finding [some] time to clean and cook!

I was collecting milk to donate, but that's a bigger commitment than I realized.  It's hard enough to feed my baby [who still eats every hour!], and find time to pump on top of all of my other chores.  I may start trying again now that it's winter and I don't really want to be out doing things in the rain.  I feel terrible since I promised a mother in need my milk, and I've yet to get some to her.  I pumped about 20 oz, but then it went bad before I could collect a good amount and drive it to her.  =/  All well, I'm trying!

I finally got the nursery decorations up on Tucker's side of our room.  So cute!

Well, that's it for now.  I have so many topics that I want to discuss, but bed is calling me.  [It's 9pm...I must be old!  haha]

Thursday, July 5, 2012

My birth story!

So as I said in my last blog, I had pre eclampsia, so they began inducing me at 9:30 pm on June 13th.  I was feeling contractions all that day, and they were getting more intense.  They began the induction with Cervidil.  That's a ribbon thats inserted in my vagina and attatched to my cervix.  It's used to soften the cervix and help me dilate.  This caused my contractions to get extremely intense.  I was to leave this in for 12 hours at which point they would start the Pitocin.  I was doing great with the contractions and back labor.  I'm pretty proud of myself.  No tears, no screams, I breathed through them great.  After those 12 hours were up a nurse, who I wasn't very fond of, came in to take the ribbon out and check my cervix.  When she began the exam it felt like my vagina had chemicals poured on it.  It was the worst pain I had ever felt in my life.  I screamed and screamed. I had some sort of reaction to the medicine and aparently it was only going to get worse.  Now, I had promised myself that I would not get any pain medication, but after 6 nurses telling me I need the epidural, my husband saying we just needed a healthy baby and nothing else mattered, and making my mom promise not to tell anyone, I got the epidural.  I made it 14 hours into an induced labor without it, so I believe I still deserve some bragging rights there.  I was humiliated though and completely crushed.  They started the pitocin and my contractions got even worse, but the epidural made everything pretty easy.  Finally they came and checked me at 7pm and I was fully dilated...I had been ready to push for a while at that point.  so they set up the room and I began pushing at 7:15.  My mom had my left foot, my husband had my right foot, and my best friend, Haley had the camera behind the doctor.  She became my focal point during my pushing. Pushing actually felt great.  Part of the reason I had pushed so long though, was that my contractions began to slow and I was waiting about 3 minutes in between each push. I pushed for about 2 hours when they figured out that the baby was stuck under my pubic bone and wasn't progressing downward.  So the repositioned me on the bed.  They laid the bed flat and I was on my bak and I arched up and looked straight behind me and that got the baby to move downward.  Once the baby had moved down I got back up into the regular position and began pushing like crazy.  They had told me they only allow two hours of pushing before calling in a c-section, but I pushed for 3 hours.  Baby's head was out and everyone was cooing over all the hair they saw!  The cord was wrapped around his neck, but I didn't even know that until my husband mentioned it 3 days later.  Once his head was through [oh yeah...that ring of fire that no one tells you about until it's about to happens sucks, but I just pushed through real fast and got past it-which is probably why I tore so much!], the shoulders came right out and he slipped out pretty fast.  As soon as the body was sliding out I got the euphoric, ectasy type feeling wash over my whole body.  It was really an out of body experience.  A warm tingling feeling stayed over me and nothing hurt anymore.  All of a sudden I heard my husband say "It's a boy!"  I bawled and after that everything was a blur.  I sat there feeling so wonderful with my beautiful son on my chest.  I delievered the placenta and it felt great, too.  They stitched me up, which also didn't hurt, and then finally I came to and focused in on my husband washing the baby up.  Finally he was back in my arms.
Tucker Stanley Poeschel was born June 14th, 2012, at 10:19pm.  He was 6lbs 9oz and 20.5 inches long.  He had a head full of dark hair and dark blue eyes, and olive skin.  I instantly fell in love.

Too much time has passed.

So I have not updated this blog since I was 28 weeks pregnant, so I am just going to fill you in from where I left off.
My 2nd trimester ended smoothly off of bed rest, but as I entered my third trimest around 34 weeks I had some mild bleeding again, but it ended up being nothing.  We did spend our Easter morning in Labor and Delivery though, monitoring the baby and the bleeding.  They determined it was just my uterus stretching and causing a little bit of blood loss.  The baby was totally fine so they sent me home.
With my last trimester came complete exhaustion.  I'd sleep about 16-20 hours a day, and was only awake to get a snack or pee.  I gained a total of 33 pounds with the pregnancy, and ended at 125lbs. my record was gaining 6 pounds in less than 2 weeks!  My cravings toward the end were french toast, starburts, and of course Taco Bell.  I have all three almost daily.  I know, I know!  I already feel guilty!
My baby shower was an amazing blessing.  My mom had a BBQ and I got more gifts than I ever imagined!  [Which reminds me of all the wonderful products I've come to love that I will share in a later blog!]
I ended up having a total of 4 sonograms throughout my pregnancy.  Two of which were completely unnecessary and I am not thrilled about it.  Since the determined in my second ultrasound that I did not have Placenta Previa, they shouldn't have continued with the sonograms, since everything was going healthy.  But alas, I had one, and then a week later I have another!  Next pregnancy I plan on standing up for myself a little better.  I'm not recalling if I ever wrote a blog on the danger of ultra sounds but here's a good link to check out: http://www.unhinderedliving.com/pultra.html
So, that's the quick sum of my pregnancy up to 38 weeks [i'll share more details with the upcoming blogs]

At my 38 week check up I had really high blood pressure [which is very unusual for me!] and a high amount of protein in my urine.  Both of which are signs of pre eclampsia, so they hooked me up to monitors to check on the baby-baby was fine but I was having contractions [most of which I wasn't feeling]. So they sent me to the hospital to be monitored more closely.  They also sent me with a jug i had to collect all my pee in for 24 hours [which I had to keep in the fridge, so needlesstosay I was the butt of every joke that night when I had to go to the fridge which just annouced to everyone in the house that i had to go pee!].  I got to the hospital and after 5 hours my blood pressure went down so they sent me home.  The next day I returned my jug to my doctor and they said I had 700mg of protein in my urine-400mg was the cut off.  I was told to go to the hospital asap and to be prepared that if the tests came back bad I was going to be induced that night.  After a few hours, my wonderful nurse Jeni informed me that I did indeed have pre eclampsia and I would indeed be induced.  They began inducing me at 9:30pm June 13th.

Next blog---> Birth story.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Hospital Bag.

Maybe I'm just insane, but I've reached the point in my pregnancy where I'm up late making lists, checking them twice, organizing baby clothes, and reorganizing them the next day, and making phone number lists for everyone I'm close with just incase I go into labor while I'm with them.  With that, I plan on packing my hospital bag sometime this week.  I was planning on waiting until my baby shower [which is 3 weeks away!], but I think I might as well start it so I can add to it as I think of stuff.  So I thought I'd share a great list I found online for all you mom-to-be's.  And you can edit out, or add in, whatever you like.

For labor

  • picture ID (driver's license or other ID), yourinsurance card, and any hospital paperworkyou need
  • Your birth plan, if you have one
  • Eyeglasses, you wear them. Even if you usually wear contact lenses, you may not want to deal with them while you're in the hospital.
  • Toiletries: Pack a few personal items, such as a toothbrush and toothpaste, lip balm, deodorant, a brush and comb, makeup, and a hair band or barrettes. Hospitals usually provide soap, shampoo, and lotion, but you might prefer your own.
  • bathrobe, a nightgown or two, slippers, and socks. Hospitals provide gowns and socks for you to use during labor and afterward, but some women prefer to wear their own. Choose a loose, comfortable gown that you don't mind getting dirty. It should be either sleeveless or have short, loose sleeves so your blood pressure can be checked easily. Slippers and a robe may come in handy if you want to walk the halls during labor.
  • Whatever will help you relax. Here are some possibilities: your own pillow (use a patterned or colorful pillowcase so it doesn't get mixed up with the hospital's pillows), music and something to play it on, a picture of someone or something you love, anything you find reassuring. If you're going to be induced, think about bringing some reading material because it may be a while before labor is underway.

    For your partner/labor coach

    • camera or video camera with batteriescharger, and memory card (or film or tape). Someone has to document the big event! (Note: Not all hospitals allow videotaping of the birth itself, but there's usually no rule against taping during labor or after the birth.)
    • Toiletries
    • Comfortable shoes and a few changes of comfortable clothes
    • Snacks and something to read
    • Money for parking and change for vending machines
    • bathing suit. If you want to take a bath or shower during labor, you may want your partner to get in with you to support you or rub your back.

      After you deliver

      • A fresh nightgown, if you prefer to wear your own
      • list of people to call and their phone numbers, your cell phone and charger or, if you'll be using the hospital phone, a prepaid phone card. After your baby's born, you or your partner may want to call family and friends to let them know the good news. Bring a list of everyone you'll want to contact so you don't forget someone important when you're exhausted after delivery.
      • Snacks! After many hours of labor, you're likely to be pretty hungry, and you may not want to rely solely on hospital food. So bring your own – crackers, fresh or dried fruit, nuts, granola bars, or whatever you think you'll enjoy. A bottle of nonalcoholic champagne might be fun for celebrating, too.
      • Comfortable nursing bras or regular bras. Whether or not you choose to breastfeed, your breasts are likely to be tender and swollen when your milk comes in, which can happen anytime during the first several days after delivery. A good bra can provide some comfort, and breast pads can be added to help absorb leaks.
      • Several pairs of maternity underpants. Some women love the mesh underwear usually provided by the hospital, but others don't. You can't go wrong with your own roomy cotton underpants. The hospital will provide sanitary pads because you'll bleed after delivery. Make sure you have a supply of heavy-duty pads waiting at home!
      • book on newborn care. The hospital will probably provide you with a book, but you may prefer your own. Of course, the postpartum nurses will be there to answer questions and show you how to change, hold, nurse, and bathe your newborn if you need guidance.
      • Photos of your other children. When they come to visit, they'll see that you haven't forgotten them.
      • Gifts for older siblings. Some parents bring gifts for the new baby to "give" to big brothers and sisters.
      • A notepad or journal and pen or pencil. Track your baby's feeding sessions, write down questions you have for the nurse, note what the pediatrician tells you, jot down memories of your baby's first day, and so on. Some people bring a baby book so they can record the birth details right away.
      • A going-home outfit. Bring something roomy and easy to get into (believe it or not, you'll probably still look 5 or 6 months pregnant) and a pair of flat, comfortable shoes.

        For your baby

        • An installed car seat. You can't drive your baby home without one! Have the seat properly installed ahead of time and know how to buckle your baby in correctly.
        • A going-home outfit. Your baby will need an outfit to go home in, including socks or booties if the clothing doesn't have feet, and a soft cap if the air is likely to be cool. Make sure the legs on your baby's clothes are separate so the car seat strap can fit between them.
        • receiving blanket. The hospital will provide blankets for swaddling your baby while you're there, but you may want to bring your own to tuck around your baby in the car seat for the ride home. Make it a heavy one if the weather's cold.

          What not to bring

          • Jewelry
          • Lots of cash or other valuables
          • Medications, including vitamins. Let your doctor know whether you're on any medications. The hospital will provide them for you if your doctor agrees that you should continue to take them while you're there.
          • Diapers. The hospital will provide diapers for your baby while you're there. Leave your supply at home.
          • breast pump. If you end up needing a breast pump for any reason, the hospital can provide one.

          Tips from moms who've been there

          "For the drive to the hospital, you may want to bring a towel you don't care about and a garbage sack. Put the garbage sack down on your seat and then the towel. That way, if your water breaks on the way to the hospital, you don't have to worry about cleaning the car when you get home." – Anonymous
          "Bring both your glasses and your contacts, along with storage case and solution. I wore my glasses during labor with my first one, but it got so hot, the glasses just fogged up and I couldn't see what was going on – very frustrating. And just trying to wear glasses during delivery was annoying and one frustration I could've done without. So bring both. You may want to switch back and forth for comfort or convenience or whatever." – Anonymous
          "I brought a few changes of clothes, since you stay a few days after the baby is born. With hormones and everything, I sweated like crazy after I gave birth, so it was nice to change into some fresh pj's or some sweats or shorts during the day, especially with people always coming to visit. Just something that made me feel better." – groovitha
          "Disposable underpants – best advice I ever got! The mesh panties they give you at the hospital with the sanitary pads are not so comfy ... and once you get home, you probably won't be graduating to just a pad or pantyliner for a couple of weeks and you'll run out of the mesh panties before then!" – Anonymous
          "Bring the baby book. They will need to get footprints and while they are doing it for the birth certificate they can use the rest of the ink and make prints for your book!" – Anonymous
          "Bring baby nail clippers or an emery board. The hospital where my son was born didn't supply clippers for fear of liability, and as a result my son gouged his face before he was 12 hours old." – Jen
          "One thing that I didn't realize I would need was nipple cream. I found breastfeeding hard to get used to and had to get someone to buy this stuff for me because my nipples got chapped!" – Portsie
          "Bring cheap throwaway flip-flops to wear into the bathroom and shower. The hospital floors were icky."  – kaym12
          "I have found that a box of chocolates or yummy treats for the nurses, left at the nurse's station as you check in, is a nice gesture. I know that sounds silly, but being a maternity nurse is a huge commitment with each new mom that comes in, and it's kind of nice to recognize that with a little something, since you'll be seeing a lot of each other over the next couple of days." – Marci
          "I brought everything on our list with our first child, and my husband had to haul it around. I didn't use half of it. A change of comfy clothes for you, your hubby, and the baby was all we really needed. Toiletries were good to have – like my toothbrush, of course. But everything else seemed to just clutter up our small room. Even the diaper bag I packed never even got opened! If you feel like you need all the extras, I would leave it in the car, just in case." –Jannell21

Parents! Don't back down!

I think it's really important to discuss your parenting strategies with your spouse before the baby is here, and once you've decided on something, don't back down.  I believe you should listen to experienced parents advice, consider what they say, why they say it, and the possible outcome, but you don't need to change your opinion just because they've had kids before so they "must be right".  I think new parents are pressured in so many ways to make "right" decisions for their children, when ultimately that's what life is about-learning for yourself.  Especially if you know someone's kids have not turned out the way you would want for your own children, consider doing things differently.  I've decided half way through my pregnancy that when someone shares with me how they would do something in a situation with their child, I'll listen, smile, and then keep my opinions to myself [for the most part].  I've gotten a lot of flack for the way Thomas and I believe children should be raised, and we've gotten a lot negative feed back that has hurt us.  I get a lot of eye rolling, snarls, "psh's", and demeaning giggles, as if I have no clue what I'm doing and I just sound ridiculous.  I don't think this is right.  Not everyone needs to agree with how you plan to parent, but it's important to get support on your parenting decisions so make sure your spouse has your back, or it can really break you down!  Unless someone is genuinely concerned about your baby's health or safety, then PLEASE consider what they are saying and if you have doubts as your doctor.

28 week update

Sorry it's been so long!  It seems like my pregnancy is flying by!

Weight Gain:
I now weight 109 as of today's doctor's appointment.  That's a total of 17 pounds gained.  I have been eating a lot healthier this week, and I'm quite proud of myself-if only I could remember my prenatals more often!  I've been eating a lot more fruit, yogurts, and getting lots of fiber and protein.  I'm still craving a lot of cereal, sandwiches, pastas, and anything Mexican...and anything icey cold.  If I could freeze everything I would.  Oh and still putting mayo on everything!

Nursery:
We've added a beautiful rocking chair, thanks to my Dad and his wife, Pam!  Other than that we haven't bought much more.  I am getting some great project ideas thanks to Pintrest!  I'll eventually post pictures once I get everything done.

Milestones:
I can now identify if it's hands & feet kicking me or if it's elbows or knees.  I can no longer see my feet.  I've signed up for childbirth classes and they start in the beginning of May.  I'm doing a breast feeding class tomorrow.

Doctors:
So I've continued my healthcare with Mercy OB, and so far it's going pretty well.  I did the glucose test about 3 weeks ago.  The first time I did it, I threw up the juice, so I had to go back a week later and do it all over again.  They put me on Zofran and it helps tremendously, since my queasiness has slightly returned.  I had my first pelvic exam 3 weeks ago as well-and it went terrible.  I've never had any female exams, and the doctor was not exactly gentle.  Her fingernails cut me.  =(  I cried.  And then she told me I may be too small to deliver, but I'm not really giving her opinion much thought honestly.  I was 25 weeks at the time...there's no way my bones are done stretching in preparation for birth.  I know plenty of girls my size or smaller who have had perfectly normal births, and I really have faith in my body and God that this is going to happen alright.  If it doesn't, we'll deal with that then, but I really don't think I'm "too small to deliver".  I did do a Non-Stress Test today because I've had the sensation that the baby is seizuring inside my stomach a couple times a week.  You can look down at my stomach when it happens and you can see it shake.  It's definitely not hiccups or contractions.  It's the strangest thing.  They hooked me up to the monitors to make sure the baby's heart rate was good and that he was getting enough oxygen, and everything was fine.  I've looked online and some doctors believe that it's the baby practicing breathing and that's the nerves reactions to getting the amniotic fluid out of his lungs.  Very weird, but all the women who say they've had the same experience [which seems to be a lot!] all said their baby's turned out fine and have never had any seizure disorders, heart problems, or anything of the sorts, so that's comforting.  I just have to have faith that everything is alright.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

23rd Week Update

This will be a long blog full of great news...so again, I'll break this up in chapters.

"Come again, Doc?"-
Today is the 29th, I'm 23 weeks and 2 days along now.  On the 22nd I went to my first doctor's appointment at Mercy OB.  And let me take this moment to say they are fantastic.  They are so nice, and my nurse, Mary, was sweet, informative, caring, and thorough.  I was very pleased with my experience.  But to the exciting part...  At that doctors appointment I weighed 101!  That's 9 pounds!  My heart rate was good.  Basically we discussed my placenta previa, and how we would go forward from there.  I then asked if I could travel to Sacramento to watch my brother-in-law, Mark, graduate from college.  She said she would order me a sonogram the next day so that we could re-evaluate the situation.  So, basically she was telling me that if the placenta hadn't moved I wasn't going, so I made plans with family so that I wouldn't be stuck at home by myself while everyone was out celebrating.  I had been told that the chances of the placenta moving are really one in a million that late into the pregnancy, and that if it was going to move at all it wouldn't do so until around 30-35 weeks.  So, I went to my appointment the next day [the 23rd] anyways.  They hooked me up to the ultrasound, and this time my husband got to be there.  The sono tech wouldn't tell me anything, but she kept commenting on how active the baby was.  I was told I have one of the most active babies they had seen in a while!  I'm thinking that's good.  I got ready to leave and I decided to ask the nurse if she thought the trip would be safe if I didn't do much walking and she said "You do not have placenta previa!  Have safe travels!"  "Wait...what?  Are you sure?"  I was positive that this was a dream.  She was so non-chalant about it, I was sure there was a mistake.  She said "Amber Reynolds, right?  10-23-92?"  Haha, I started balling.  I was trying to ask questions but couldn't get a sentence out without crying.  This was the biggest miracle ever.  I have had an army of people praying for me and the baby.  God definitely conquered this.  There is nothing scientific about this.  Truly, this was the first time in my life where there was no doubt in my heart that God was on my side, and that my prayers were really being listened to.  I always knew prayer worked...but to have 100% certainty of such was amazing.  I felt like God personally tuned into my life and answered my biggest prayer of my life!  It's so great to be touched by the Big Man.  So we celebrated by going to Sacramento the next day.  It wore me out, but it was great!

Off Bedrest-
So now I'm off bed rest, and the doctor called me today and told me the baby is measuring right on and they didn't find any abnormalities.  So that's great!  I do have some sort of minor infection though, but she believes it's caused by me not taking my Elmiron any more.  She said it wasn't a big deal, so I didn't listen to the details much, just had her call in a prescription.  It's not a UTI, but it's some sort of bacteria that my body is having trouble fighting.  Being off bed rest has been great.  I'm trying to work up my energy and muscle.  Lying down 24/7 for almost two months does not do the body good.  I get tired easily now, but I'm getting my house together!  I am loving my new house, and we finally have the baby all set up.  My life is getting back together. Getting my insurance worked out this week, and tomorrow I'm calling unemployment.  I sure do miss work!

Cravings-
I eat cereal every day.  Cheerios and Honey Bunches of Oats, especially.  Taco Bell's taco supremes.  Cranberry juice.  Ice Cream.  Cold things.  Bland things.  And of course mexican still.

Nursery-
We have been getting everything set up nicely.  We decided to keep the crib broken down until we'll be using it.  We have a bassinet I plan on using for a while.  And I plan to co-sleep.  I had ordered 3 more diapers a while ago, and they never came.  I accepted that my great deal was too good to be true, and that I was scammed, but my in-laws showed up with them last weekend.  It some how got shipped to their house instead of ours.  So I now have 7 cloth diapers...slowly but surely building them up.  My main things on my list of things we need before the baby gets here:  Mini-washing machine, glider chair, more diapers, safety kits and first aid stuff, baby towels and bathroom stuff, a Moby wrap [or a more generic version haha], classic pooh crib set [of course that can probably wait], more clothes, a diaper pail or some sort of contraption for holding the dirty cloth diapers, newborn disposable diapers [we are doing disposable for the first 3 months or so], nursing bras, changing table pad, and the video baby monitor.  While unpacking our new house, I've been finding all the pooh bear stuff I've been saving since I was a kid, and I'm excited to start setting things up.  Also, I'll be starting all my little baby projects soon [wood letters, baby scrapbook, grocery cart cover, more bassinet sheets, tye dye onesies, ect.,...].

Milestones-
I think my only real milestone this week is that by the end of the week I'm considered a viable pregnancy!  So everyday from here on out is hope!